School's Out For The Summer

Today is the last day of Kindergarten for Bodie and the last day of second grade for Brayden.  How did that happen?   I swear Brayden was just starting preschool!  I know every mom says that, but I am really feeling it.  I can't believe my baby is going into first grade.  I have tried very hard to talk him into repeating Kindergarten, but as much as he enjoyed it he isn't interested. So I guess time moves on despite our best efforts.  I always love the ages my boys are and I love watching them become more independent, but I just wish they could stay little for awhile longer.  and somehow the arrival of summer, as much as we yearn for it, reminds us that another year has passed and my babies are another year closer to being grown.  In fact, now that they are 1st and 3rd graders, can I even call them babies anymore?  I know that they will let me, but it hardly fits the big boys that they have become.  I am so proud!  But I still miss those tiny baby boys who needed mommy to do everything for them.  Sigh...

Busier Than Ever

This Busy boys mama has been busier than ever this week.  I had felt a pull on my heart for a long time that I finally listened to (yes God, I hear you... I'm BUSY)   1 year later   (Oh, God... is that you again?  You still want me?  But I have to do these other things first...)  you know how we all get.  SO finally I jumped.  Someone came to our church on the Sanctity of Human Life weekend to talk about their Crisis Pregnancy center and the ministry it does there, and I felt the pull on my heart again.  Only this time  I didn't have 52 other things jump into my mind that I "should" do instead.  I turned to Eric and told him I still felt like I was supposed to do that, so he told me to go talk to the lady after service.  The rest, as they say, is history.  I've spent all week in training and it felt great. (ok, not all great.  Some of it was sad and I cried.)  But I could feel that this was it.  I was supposed to be there.   I will officially start "shadowing" on Tuesday, which means I'll get to see how all of the stuff I've learned gets used with real clients.  I know God has some "Divine Appointments" for me, and I'm thrilled.  I am positive I will not be bored!  And I will be spreading God's love in a very cool way.  I am scared and excited at once, like the first day of school!  Yay!

New Life

What do you do when you get the life you always wanted, only to discover you don't know what to do with it? I loved being a stay at home mom when my kids were little.  It was what I always wanted to do.  Then I had to go back to work and my heart broke when I put them in daycare... not that it wasn't a wonderful daycare, but it wasn't me.  Now I'm home again and they are in school.  I love picking them up and being here with them in the afternoon, but I am by nature a social person.  I do like the sleeping part, I won't lie.  Most days I take the boys to school and then come home and go back to bed.  Or I do some cleaning and then take a nap.  But I miss people.  I miss doing stuff.  I mean, I can go do stuff by myself, but that gets old.  And really, what is there to do besides run errands?  I guess I'm going to have to go ahead and start doing some work... I'm bored with being here alone.  Sigh.  I'm so disappointed :-).  Maybe if I start subbing a few days a week I'll feel better.