So when I started this I had the best of intentions of writing every day. You can see how well that is working out for me. But that's ok, because I guess you do what you can do.
This has been an interesting week. I guess you could say I am experiencing some "growing pains". I know God has us go through things for a reason, and sometimes small things can seems overblown. I tend to do that a lot... I focus on things that seem small to others way more than I need to or probably should. It's just how I'm built. Lately I have been feeling really out of place. I don't know if it's because I'm getting ready to move and I'm beginning that seperation process, or if I just needed that reminder that I'M DIFFERENT. When faced with people who have extremely different views than me on things normally I just keep my mouth shut because "I am not from here" and I know that in a lot of ways my different ideas are just not welcome. Yet every once in awhile these things bother me until I say something, and then I perseverate on whether or not I upset the person I said something to, when really I should be more focused on the fact that I finally pointed out to them that they have been oblivious to the fact that they have been offending me, sometimes for months, by just assuming that everyone has the same opinion as them. I realize that a lot of my liberal views are not PC in the South. I get it. And yet it is a pert of who I am. It is part of what makes me, well, me! and if someone doesn't like me because of that, then really doesn't that mean that they don't like me? And shouldn't I be ok with that instead of worrying so much about whether or not someone is still going to be my friend? I should be secure enough in myself to just put it out there and say, "Yes, I realize you won't agree with this. I'm ok with that. I'm not trying to say you are wrong. I'm not trying to say I am right. I'm just trying to show you more of who I really am." At the end of the day, if we are really friends, isn't that ok?
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